You cannot withold the feeling, imaging that one day, some day, you'll experience all of it at one go. It isn't like pieces of sweets. It isn't a holiday or home that you save up for. By not feeling joy today, do you imagine that you can save it up and experience ecstasy in a distant future?
It cannot be delayed. It cannot be saved then spent.
It requires practice. You learn to be happier by feeling incrementally joyful each day. It is a muscle that must be exercised, lest it atrophy.
Learn to be happy. For only in learning so, will you be happy."