Reluctant Smiles

Need to fortify my defences so that I won't scar so readily.

Feels as though I'm too easily hurt by the opinions of the people around me.

I care too much, I feel too deeply.

And I pretend that I don't care that much nor feel that deeply.

I've come to realise that my smiles are becoming more strained. It's requiring more effort, more energy to pull my mouth into a smile.

How I yearn to find the boy that I once was. But, how?